Since it is still the first month, I think it is not that late if I write what I wanna achieve this year. Resolution, this is the term used by many people to indicate that – usually made when special moments happen or something changes. Quite common examples are birthday, new year, graduation, and so on. Here first let me tell you what the meaning of this year – 2009 – is for me. I consider 2009 as year of pursuit.

Yeah, what do I need to pursuit anyway? Simply stated, life. As you guys know, I just finished 10 months (2 semesters) student exchange program to Daejeon University, South Korea. It was like the biggest experience I ever had in my life. Extremely said, it seems like I lived in other world during that time. From March 27, 2008 (the time when the student exchange program started – when I went to Korea), I was pausing my life to enter totally different life and just resumed my real life on January 3, 2009 (when I came back to Indonesia).

The reason why I declare that program as living in different world with no connection with my real life will be explained in other post. Here I state that I really didnt regret join that program. As stated above, I experienced many wonderful things I wouldnt experience here. However, it had consequences. The fact that I have to pause my life means that Icouldnt achieve almost all that at first I wanted to achieve last year,for example – probably the most obvious one – I first wanted to graduate last year (2008), but now I am still struggling with my final project.

Finally, in this year, I have to pursuit all that I wanted to achieve before – after 10 months break. Starting with the resolution, here they are:

• Graduate

This perhaps is the most intolerable – but also the most challenging – thing I want to achieve this year. Since I just started my final project this month (I couldnt do when I was in Korea), therefore graduate this year means that I only have 4 months and 3 weeks (since I wrote this post) to do my whole final project. Even I only need to take 1 other course beside this (Distributed System course), but I dont think It will be easy. I will focus all my first half year time for achieving this – sincerely need pray for all of you ^_^

• 100 % Financially Support My Own Life

Yes, I also cannot tolerate this. As my parents get old, I become more worried about them. Almost achieving retire age, and it only means one thing. Soon it will be my turn – to at least support my own life, and also my family (parents and two younger sisters). Last year I also announced this, but I couldnt totally fulfil it. I supported my own life for about 75 % in 2007, and it increased to about 90 % in 2008. Still not enough, I think. I want it to be 100 % this year, so by this year I can start to help my parents to fulfil family need. Especially, one of my sisters will enter college this year – means more money are needed. How will I do that? Well, it is related to the next one, hehe. I want to get master scholarship by the end of this year, but it means that I will go abroad next year. Therefore, I will spend one year working – means getting paid while getting experience ^_^ – as soon as (or even before) I graduate.

• Studying at Top of The World

As time goes on, I become more and more addicted in achieving this dream. At first I just want to study abroad. But after I experienced student exchange program to Korea last year, my dream changed. Not just study in other country – well I already did that. Now I want to study at top of the world. It is still in other country though . What does it mean? Simple. I want to study at MIT. What do you think? Some said that it is too much for me, and some other said that I can do it. I don’t know which one is correct, whether I can or not, but I remember what Henry Ford said, “If you think you can do a thing or think you can’t do a thing, you’re right”. So? Nothing I can do except believe that I can. I will spend my first half year (well, in addition to do my final project) to gather as much information as possible about this, and my second half year to prepare for that. So, MIT, I will go there summer next year.

• Reduce Weight

Hahaha, this is just like the financial support thing. I announced this by the beginning of last year, but I havent still achieved it. However, most of the people I met nowadays said that I am slimmer that before, which means that I am getting nearer to my ideal weight (For your information, for a 170-cm man like me, my ideal weight is between 58 to 70). Since I am not in that area yet, don’t ask me how much is my weight now, okay?

There they are. My resolution for this year-of-pursuit. My resolution which I made after paused and postponed my life for around 10 months. The reason why I put those here is simple, I need help – motivation and pray – from all of you. I hope that I can fulfil all of them, and thank you for your help ^_^